I don't think the 2nd line isn't coming back

I don't think the second line is coming back.  This is 12 dpo and in my previous positive it occurred on 12 dpo, so I think this is another cycle down the drain. I try not dwell and move on to the next cycle by planning.  My husband and I have discussed our next steps. 

I think we are going to try one more iui and if that is unsuccessful, we will start saving a lot of money or take out a loan for ivf.  The doctor's office has an affording ivf seminar once a month, so I think we will try to go to that this coming up month.  The teacher who works next door to me at school is currently going through ivf from there and now she's in the waiting stages, and so I asked how much it all costs.  The costs for everything adds up to 12,000.  So maybe I'll do some baked sales or try to rake in some donations, because it is so expensive, and I can try for some scholarships, but we will see.  Trying not to put the cart infront of the horse.

2nd IUI

Our second IUI was a lot better than I expected.  Perhaps, B’s disgusted attitude about the magazine with the stuck pages resulted in the first one.  Our doctor was very optimistic.  Unfortunately, for male factor infertility they said usually they try three successfully timed iui’s before recommending IVF.  Since the Femara is successful in helping me ovulate better, we will stick with this medication.  I am praying that our IUI works!  Here is a look at our numbers:

	Pre Wash Sperm	Post Wash Sperm	Averages for prewash only
Sperm Density	24.7 million	6.6 million	20 million
Volume	1.2 ml	.7 ml	2 ml
Total Sperm Count	30 million	4.6 million	40 million
Total Motile Sperm	11 million	3 million	20 million
% motility	36%	66%	50%

2 Eggs 1 Cup

I received a positive opk, so I called the doctor to schedule my IUI.  The doctor looked at my lining, she said it was perfect.  Then she looked and found two follicles on my right ovary!  That's right my right ovary is rocking!  I have one measuring at 20 mm and one at 18 mm.  Both are pop-able!  Anways, she gave me a trigger shot and tomorrow we have our IUI.  I'm really excited about this cycle.  I'm feeling pretty positive about it!

Last Femara Cycle

I called to refill my Femara prescription and realized it was my last refill, so what do I do next?  So I called the doctor to ask them what they would like me to do.  If I need to schedule in the middle of the cycle or at the end, so next cycle would not be a bust.  My doctor is recommending Femara + IUI.  If this cycle doesn't work, we will be moving on to injectables. 

I'm just kind indifferent about it all.  I just want something that will work.  It sucks because it means I'm getting closer ivf.  I think I will ask my doctor about a trigger shot with this cycle.  If I'm producing the eggs and the lining looks good on Femara, why have I not gotten pregnant?  Is it possible I'm not actually releasing an egg and just going through the motion?  So this cycle, I will be waiting for my positive opk.

To Lower Costs

I decided I would follow Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover.  That makes me feel better knowing that if we do need the money for IVF, we will have it.  I would sell my house, the house we built, in order to get some kiddos around here.  Of course, I really need to save money just in case I can't carry full term, and we have to adopt.  The average price of IVF is $12,000 per IVF cycle and we all know that is can take more than one cycle.  The average price of adoption is $30,000.  As figures add up in my head, it scares the crap out of me.  Luckily, Dave Ramsey will be helping me with that.  We don't have a lot of debt.  We have the mortgage, car and tires.  The mortgage is in the process of being refinanced and should save us an extra 250 a month.  Right now, we are on baby step 1.  We made our budget, now sticking to it.  I'm trying to only spend 100/week at the grocery.  Yesterday, I went and spent 112.  (But I did buy sticks just to check one time before I begin Femara on Monday).  So next week, I must try really hard to be below 90.