Ovulation Celebration

This will now be my theme song for the middle of my cycle.  This is a cute video about opks. 

"A Smile Confuses an Approaching Frown"

This smiley face sure is confusing me!  WTH?  I'm only on cylce day 11.  Technically, I'm on cycle day 10 from my Femara count.  I can't believe I have a positive opk.  Is this not too early?  Sure I'm glad to see the little cuss smiling at me, but I just don't trust my body.  I can't believe I'm ready.  If this is actually positive, this is kind of nice considering we have the whole family reunion coming up.  I knew something was up this morning when my temperature plummeted.  I'll keep taking my temperature, but  we'll have to baby dance like crazy. 

Birds and Bees: Jane's Pregnant Again

I think we have all felt this way when other women have gotten pregnant.  To all my uterus hating friends out there!!!

Infertility Shoes

This video illustrates some of the ignorant things others say.  It kind of makes the infertile path a little humorous.

Ramblings of the Reunion and the Trial and Tribulations of TTC Gal

We are getting ready to pack up for a family reunion in NE.  We are sharing a room with my dad and brother.   For the family reunion, my father has like 100 cousins on one side (I know you think I’m exaggerating, but truthfully, he has 70 first cousins).  Yes, a little ironic that I should suffer from infertility, since I have a lot of baby-making sexy Catholics in my family.  I have feeling this will be a very interesting trip.

For some background information, my ovulation day ranges from cycle day 12-21.  I know, my body doesn’t like predictability!  Anyways, currently, I’m on cycle day 7.  The reunion is on Sunday, which is of course cycle day 14. This terrifies me, because now I am trying to plan alternative arrangements should I piss a smiley face on an OPK.  If I do, the room situation is not looking very promising because we are sharing a room with dad and brother.  Talk about awkward.  So I’ve been thinking if only I was fertile, then I wouldn’t care if we missed this cycle.  Our alternative arrangement is praying that we don’t see a smiley face until day 16!  But just in case, I told my B to be ready for sneaking off to a bathroom.  He seemed a little uneasy.  I reminded him, “sex is not about your comfort; we got Preseed for that.”  I’m so glad he gets my sense of humor.  In addition to the room issue, my Aunt made me question my logic on this whole conception thing.

 My Aunt tells me that in order to get pregnant at the reunion, we will need some Tequila.  “You have to get drunk off of Tequila.”  Avoiding Tequila was my birth control as a teen.  I didn’t even know sex had to be involved to get pregnant from the stories she forewarned me of.   Since I started trying to conceive, I have avoided alcohol because every piece of literature says that it hampers fertility.  Yet, we all know that one girl (because I’m in my bitter stage of infertility, we’ll refer to her as “slut”) who had one hell of drunken night the night she got knocked up.  So who knows, maybe I will have to try that too!!!! 

For family reunions, we all have matching shirts in the same color.  I’ve been tye-dying shirts for my cousins to wear, and I was thinking about how much fun it would be to get pregnant this cycle.  For the next reunion, everyone could wear the shirt that says, “I went to the reunion and all I got was this stinking T-shirt.”  Then my hubby’s and mine could say, “I went to the reunion and all I got was this stinking cute baby.”    

Praying for a smiley face and conception AFTER the reunion!

Appreciating the little things

I have to say I have an amazing family. They are truly supportive and try their best to help me feel better. I have seen things on the web about infertility breaking up families because the family members are not supportive or completely insensitive. 

My family is amazing and this is a shoutout to all the wonderful people out there who are supporting their family friends.  They are truly angels in disguise.  Now, if only one was a stork in disguise.....

PS:  I finally figured out how to space on this blog; please excuse what look to be typos in other postings.

Costs of IF thus far

I saw another blogger keep a tally of what their journey had cost them thus far, and I decided to do the same. Eventually, I will put it on this blog. So I decided to calculate the bills of everything from 2011 on. Keep in mind, this is not discussing any emotional costs, just pocketbook costs. Granted, this does not include opk (which cost over $30 per month) and the pregnancy sticks (which is about $8 for a three pack) which will usually last me about a day. I know a bit obsessive, but I hold out hope that each stick may result in a different result. So what if I took it the morning and afternoon, hcg builds fast and perhaps this evening will show me a different result. Last month, I used and bought ten packages of pregnancy sticks. Another part of me feels like if I find out early enough, I can go to the doctor and this one might be able to be saved. I have spent over 22,000 dollars in infertility treatments, diagnostics, etc. yet I have nothing to show for it. I don't have a baby; I don't have a bump. It's kind of like my miscarriages: nothing left but a bill. I guess I feel fustrated because I have spent 22,000; yet, hospitals don't require others to place a huge down payment before the family collects their baby from the nursery. In fact, some people can even collect welfare and yet they are allowed to pop out kids like a popcorn machine.