Today at school, I found out my other coworker who went through IVF after me is pregnant. So I personally know two people who went through IVF and got pregnant their first time. Does this happen to me- absolutely not! I kind of feel alone, which is why I guess I am so appreciative of the blogging community, because I know bloggers who have had failed IVF. Part of me says, "I'll get my turn," buyt unfortunately, having babies isn't about turns and fairness.
I'm so fustrated and bitter! Part of me looks for some kind of reason, some kind of something that I can have control of, but there's nothing. Part of me questions his existance; if you know that pain I feel and have felt; this agonizing hell- how can there be this spiritual being in charge of this, and what did I do to deserve this?
I would like to be optomistic about my FET in couple of weeks, but I don't think it's going work. Why would it?
The other day, when I wrote about my bloody fiasco with the injections, turns out I hit a blood vessel which resulted in a galaxy of a bruise. Sure enough, guess what I did today. Same damn thing, just the other side!
I'm over today!