Costs of IF thus far

I saw another blogger keep a tally of what their journey had cost them thus far, and I decided to do the same. Eventually, I will put it on this blog. So I decided to calculate the bills of everything from 2011 on. Keep in mind, this is not discussing any emotional costs, just pocketbook costs. Granted, this does not include opk (which cost over $30 per month) and the pregnancy sticks (which is about $8 for a three pack) which will usually last me about a day. I know a bit obsessive, but I hold out hope that each stick may result in a different result. So what if I took it the morning and afternoon, hcg builds fast and perhaps this evening will show me a different result. Last month, I used and bought ten packages of pregnancy sticks. Another part of me feels like if I find out early enough, I can go to the doctor and this one might be able to be saved. I have spent over 22,000 dollars in infertility treatments, diagnostics, etc. yet I have nothing to show for it. I don't have a baby; I don't have a bump. It's kind of like my miscarriages: nothing left but a bill. I guess I feel fustrated because I have spent 22,000; yet, hospitals don't require others to place a huge down payment before the family collects their baby from the nursery. In fact, some people can even collect welfare and yet they are allowed to pop out kids like a popcorn machine.