18 dpo

Here I am, 18 dpo and still a BFN! It must be a cyst which sucks because each day I was suppose to get my period causing my heart pattered harder. My temperature dropped today; however, it is still above my coverline. Sometimes I just wonder, when will it be my turn? I have a cousin who is about to give birth, and it is really affecting me more than I thought it would. I don't wish anything ill upon them, but it just sucks. I feel like it should be me. Had I not had a miscarriage in Jsnuary '10 I would have a little one now. Had I not had a miscarriage in December, I would have the due date of August 16. I'm a little sad today.